Prove Me Wrong

       Signs of Struggle      Please watch and acknowledge those who could be suffering in silence. Yes, they may say they're fine, but remember every tear they cry is something the heart can not express. Something so deep that you feel like you're in a sink hole that you can't climb out of no matter how how much you struggle to get free. So many feelings and emotions trapped that you're drowning in your own tears and dangerous thoughts. Your so confused all the time that it feels like your in a never-ending maze with no escape. You're in so much pain that a quick gun shot to the head would feel like a breath of relief.  Only 5 pounds it  only takes  five pounds  of pressure to pull a trigger and it's all over.    Five pounds  of pressure to take a life. This is what  Society has brought me too. Society has made me feel this way but, why? I though I could ignore it, I thought I was above it, boy, was I wrong...

  What does God say about Suicide?      I have grown up on the common saying "If you commit suicide then you're going to Hell!". So I have always believed that and so does many others. But recently I watched a speech on suicide and it was a preachers daughter who committed suicide. And he said she might be in a better place but I want her here next to me. So if he was referring the "better place" to be heaven, then is what we learned as kids not true?       So I asked my Old Testament teacher the same question that's been on my mind for days after that speech "If you commit suicide do you go to Hell?". This was his response;       " I think it is a question a lot of students have.  If one believes that the God revealed in the Bible is a God of love who is especially concerned for those who are hurting and in pain (as I do), and if one recognizes that anyone who commits suicide has to be living in a realm of unimaginable hu...

       How it Feels to go Through it All             Suicide is a serious subject, so many precious lives have been lost do to suicide. First all y'all need to understand what it feels like being depressed and trapped in your own mind is like for suicidal people. I wrote a poem to try and capture one of the many feelings you feel in depression. It's a mix of three of my poems. Hello, I am trapped I am trying to call out But no-one can hear me. Please don't leave you're my last piece of sanity. I have a simple question,  am I good enough? Do I have what it takes to survive, to thrive? Or am I too broke to fix, Am I a waste of time, breath, space? If not, then why do I feel this way? The   feeling of utter emptiness inside without a clue why? I know I am loved and adored but there is something more. Something too deep down to grab and fix Something we crave but...